The most incredible dreams come true. I sit here in Spring, Texas… at Forerunner House of Prayer, in 12 hours of continuous worship. One hour in particular led by me. I’m so grateful. Sometimes I wonder how this could mean so much to me. I wonder if that is normal. God, this is so incredible to me. There are not enough thank yous to be shouted. Oh the years of dreaming, and daydreaming, and beating myself up for wanting this so much, for thinking there must have been something wrong with me.
Oh how I am longing for eternity, for the unceasing worship around the throne. To be with the Lord and be so satisfied. To not feel hunger and be thirsty. God, you said blessed are they that hunger and thirst. And yes they are more blessed than those who do not. But oh how I long for the day when I am filled with your fullness.
God, I would go right now. I just want to be with you. I’m so whole when I am with you. I am so complete. And I just feel so strongly that I am right where I belong. There is no where else I would rather be. And words are cheap. So weigh my tears.
God you brought my dream to me, you bring my destiny to me. I feel like I have not fully just been able to thank you. So here, find my gratitude in these tears. I am so overwhelmed in who you are. You are so amazing and i just want to be before you forever. How long, Oh Lord, how long before I am with You? Oh God, let my heart bring unceasing praise to You. I know I am weak. I fall and I fail. And I don’t always do the right thing. But I love you so much.
I want to give my life. God this is what I desire more than anything. It fulfills me so perfectly. I am frustrated with all the distrations. This life is fading, it is passing, and it is not all there is. And I just cry out for more. More, Lord, is what I want and what I need. Teach me the ways that please You. Let my feet find Your pathway God. Let the thoughts of my heart and the words of my mouth be pleasing to You, God. You are all that matters to me.
“Better is one day in Your courts than thousands elsewhere!” Oh God, this is my favorite day in my whole life. My favorite place to be is with You. I was born for this. I was born to be here in Your presence. Jesus, You saw this sweet little girl, who would go through so much and be so hurt. You saw her heart, always singing, loving to worship so young, and You knew what You had for her. You knew her destiny was in the place of prayer and worship. You knew she would take her place, keeping the fire burning on Your alter.
God, I just don’t know how I will ever thank You for all that You have brought me through. How can I truly feel the depths of praise You are due. You amaze me.
